It's an entry.

It's a start.

Ohhhh I'm so tired of reading
And writing and reading and writing

Ohhhh I'm so tired of writing
And reading and writing too

I don't really have any reason to say "bah, humbug".

Fall is my favorite. But... "bah, humbug" anyway.

Please, God, don't let me kill anyone that comes in the office using only paperclips.

Only three more days of this full-time chaos... Then vacation until the 14th.

*sigh*

...is the Battle of the Bands.

When I get off work I'm getting a haircut. Then eating, then figuring out what the hell I'm going to wear, then possibly practicing for a bit before getting dressed and doing the dang thing.

I'm working on a new song called "Look (What You Have Done)". It makes me happy/sad but it's really coming along well, and it really surprises me how quickly things fall into place sometimes. Not only have we completely finished the first TSW album, but Colby got half the songs mastered, we sent some off and gave some out, and now we are working on the new album. "Look (What You Have Done)" will be the first one on the new album. I like it. I'm happy. I'm giddy and I'm drinking coffee at work and I'm tired but not because I haven't slept. Mostly because of allergy medicine. And I love everyone, even if they don't deserve it. G'day.

Check it out, an update to my livejournal. Actually, I should do this a lot more often. I just have really gotten into the ease and convenience of Myspace.

My band is playing at the Summer Exposure Battle of the Bands in two days. I am pretty pumped about it even though things have been problematic recently. But overall, I'm so in love with music and performing that it doesn't really matter what happens on that stage. Getting out and doing it again feels great.

Work has been monotonous mostly. It feels so great to see it reach 5:00 every day.

Thanks to a certain someone, I have been chewing Crybabys all day long. Well, not really. But when I do chew them I chew like 20 in a row and then my tongue is numb. What sour bliss.

Where the hell is Joel? He walked out of here like an hour ago and never came back. Joel is my co-worker. He has a ponytail.

Andi is updating.

Oh my God.

What will become of us?

I feel like I'm losing my mind a little at a time, and I'm really starting to enjoy it. I'm breaking down all these walls of reality and sanity and insecurity and confusion and just learning to be. I hold on to a lot, hold out for a lot. But I think all of that is about to change. Of course, that could just be my low blood sugar talking.

"I AM AN ALL-POWERFUL AMAZON WARRIOR,
NOT JUST SOME SNIVELING GIRL!
SO NO MATTER WHAT I THINK I NEED,
YOU KNOW I CAN'T POSSIBLY HAVE A NEED
IN THIS WORLD."

I have really bad mood swings a lot. I know that a lot of it has to do with my blood sugar (migraines and dizziness would put anyone in a bad mood). But I think a lot of it is hypersensitivity. Why am I even typing about this? Something is definitely the matter with me.

Hey Peacock, if you're reading this, you don't ever have to read Becoming Oxytocin again! That's right, Oxytocin, not Oxycontin. Because I'm straight-edge.

Yeah, right.

K, I was all in the mood to write and now I'm not. At all.

SOOO go to my MYSPACE page and read the blog entry I just wrote there. Because it pretty much wraps it all up. Holla!

Andispace

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

Heh heh. I like to kiss.

I am a mess. A complete and utter fucking mess.

And the funny thing about it is, I'm totally OK with that.

It's odd. I'm so ecstatic and so miserable at the same time.




I think I just feel for once that all the opportunities coming my way, presenting themselves from the ends of dark alleys as luminescent prospects and promises, are no longer being viewed as burdens or things I have to find time to fit into my schedule.

They are blessings.
And I don't deserve them.

I can't remember the last time I posted here.

Which is the only reason I'm posting here.

*sigh*
I'm tired.

I would like (just once) to come home and have a man waiting for me.

It's really hard to always be alone.

Sometimes distance is the only thing that sucks more than not having anyone at all.

If I get fat, will anyone notice?

If I died in my sleep, how many days would it take for someone to find me?

If that happened, who would take care of my cat?

Why can't I ever be satisfied with anything?

Is it really necessary to get blisters every time you wear new shoes?

I would probably have to sleep for about six months to make up for all the sleep I've lost over the past few years.

Even having said that, I don't ever like to go to sleep.

Mostly because I sleep alone.

Which reminds me how hard it is.

And how distance is sometimes the only thing that sucks worse than not having anyone at all.

I have been messing about with myspace a bit lately.

Here's my page if anyone's bored or wants to add me to their friends list!
<3 ya!



*andispace*


P.S. Summer has got me a little crazy so sorry for not posting!

I stole this from the love of my life, toby_rimbaud.

Describe yourself using one band and song titles from that band
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Are you male or female:	Lost Woman Song
Describe yourself:	Serpentine
How do some people feel about you:	Manhole
How do you feel about yourself:	Sick of Me
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:	Out of Range
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:	What How When Where (Why Who)
Describe where you want to be:	I Know This Bar
Describe what you want to be:	Fierce, Flawless
Describe how you live:	Names and Dates and Times
Describe how you love:	As Is
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In case you haven't noticed... I often use lyrics from songs I'm listening to or have in mind to describe what I'm going through or feeling at the time. That's mainly b/c I connect so strongly with music and lyrics, but also b/c I'm not really too keen on divulging personal information to the entire universe, be it online or elsewhere.

I'm really feeling this today. Actually it sums up everything I've felt over the span of the past 24 hours.
I'm not really depressed so don't think that. I'm just really feeling a connection to this song and I am tired of constantly feeling like I'm on my toes.

( Pull )

On another note, the Banquet is Friday and Pete and I are throwing a party at my house Saturday night so this weekend should be fun and photogenic.

I've been studying up on chakras and life force a bit and I'm finding that to be really interesting if not somewhat frighteningly accurate.

NICO is my new favorite CD. *sigh*

How come, (boy) was there when I needed one
How come, (boy) was there when the song is done
Some say, open your eyes to a brighter light
Okay, opened my arms, they were right

(He) was my soul one
the only one

Yes, I do replace she/girl with he/boy whenever I am singing songs.
And f u if you think I should have cut this entry more. Because it's too late and there's nothing you can do about it.

I'll disintegrate over time
If I expect my body to keep up with my mind
But today everything's mine


I <3 you all and hope you're making positive vibes and memories.

I just received in the mail the Blind Melon: Nico CD I have been trying to order since last year. I am really happy about that. I have been getting a lot of new music as of late:
Beck-Guero
Ani D.-Knuckledown
(I also ordered Educated Guess; it should be here soon.)
And the aforementioned, Blind Melon-Nico

I've also got six new tracks of ours that I've been listening to.


I could burst. But I'm just too tired.